What do you do when life doesn’t make sense and just hurts? When God doesn’t follow the plan and His ways seem too hard to even think about understanding? What truths do you lean on when there doesn’t seem to be any good in a situation?

Watching my family go through the painful situation that it has gone through recently, and knowing full well that many have gone through equally painful if not harder circumstances I’ve been asking some tough questions.

And the answer I keep coming back to is very simple but it has given me such peace and even encouraged my faith.

God is God and I am not.

Honestly, right now I can’t even lean on the idea of God’s goodness bc sometimes what God allows doesn’t feel good or look good or fit my definition of “good.” Really, what is good????

Yes, I would say that God has been good to my family in huge ways. He has been faithful and has carried us through this. God has been good to me. But that’s not what has brought me peace.

My peace has come when I simply acknowledge that He is God.
Therefore, He has the right,
He has the ability,
and even the possibility
of doing whatever He wants,
whenever He wants,
and in whatever way He wants
and for His own reasons.

Bc He is God.

Even in the midst of the struggle, in the midst of the pain and the hurting, the saying goodbyes, even when I shake my fist to the heavens bc it just hurts and I don’t understand and don’t like it! I have come to the realization that He is God. And yes, He is a good God! But first and foremost – He is God. And life and death are all about Him.

May we come to understand this truth even better than we do today.