My flesh and my heart may fail but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. Ps 73:26 

I went through a phase recently where I was terrified that I was going to die soon. Which would leave my young kids without a mother and my young, good looking husband without a wife. And it caused me no end of stress, tension, frustration. It weighed on my heart and on my mind.

I was becoming captive to this one thought, and I couldn’t let it go.

Then God reminded me to control my thoughts. And when that fear came I’d push it out of my mind and replace it with that verse quoted above. For about 30 days I sat and meditated for a few minutes on that verse, and I began to realize a few things.

My heart and my flesh will fail. One day. They may fail soon, they may fail later, but one day I will die.

But God… I have come to love that little phrase… but God is the strength of my heart and He is my portion forever. Therefore, I do not need to be afraid. In life and in death I belong to Him to do with as He sees fit.

I am not in a hurry to die, believe me. I have prayed for a long life that I may be used by God to bring His Kingdom and glorify His Name. But whether in this life or in the life to come God is the strength of my heart and He is my portion forever.

Either way, I am blessed and I win because I’m on the winning team.

Believer, I don’t know where your struggle is. I don’t know what fears and lies are pressing on you today but I do know this: But God… And that makes all the difference. May God be the strength of your life, and may He be your portion forever. In life and in death may you belong to Him.

Even when your heart and flesh fail, He is a good and faithful God.