If you had asked me when I was younger what I was going to do with my life I would have told you – I was going to be a single woman missionary overseas somewhere. No children, no husband I was going to preach to the nations. Well, I have a cousin who is studying French in France to soon go over to Africa with her family to be missionaries. And I had a friend who went to Jordan for 6 mos with her family for her husband’s education. And here I am in Scottville Mi with a wonderful husband and two beautiful little kids.
This is not what I had planned. This is not where I was going to be! This is not what I was going to be doing. And sometimes I have struggled wondering if I missed a turn somewhere or misunderstood God at some point. Did I go left when I should have gone right? Did I look down when I was suppose to be looking up? This isn’t what I signed up for God! One of us made a mistake somewhere!
Prov 16:9 states “in his heart a man plans his course but the LORD directs his steps.” Truth be told, I cannot fathom my life at this point without my husband or children. I cannot imagine being anywhere else. I can honestly say I am content and I am very thankful for the many ways in which I have been blessed. I can honestly say God has been faithful to me. And the best part is, the faithfulness of God is in turn producing a faithfulness to God in me.
I don’t know what the future holds. When I was younger I was confident and so sure. I knew exactly who I was and what God had called me to do. I am less confident now in the future. But, I am more confident in God and the fact that He will carry out his plan for this life.
No matter what the future holds may you always look to the One who is faithful and who will lead you step by step.